Friday, July 23, 2010

Day 204

Do you ever wake up in the morning and immediately begin an argument...with yourself? That's what happened to me today. Not only is there a part of me that is feeling argumentative, this little gremlin is downright mean.

She reminds me of how foolish I acted in a recent social situation. She points out patterns and insists that I "never learn." She compares me to others, always unfavorably. I try to wrestle her into submission, but it seems the more I fight, the stronger she gets.

She picks fights when what she really needs is nurturing. I invite her to climb up on my lap so I can hold her close and rock her gently. I whisper, "There, there, I see you. I know you are hurting. I won't desert you." Finally she is quiet.

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