Nothing pisses me off more than broken promises. It is hard for me to maintain relationships with people who do not honor their commitments. I am a harsh judge when it comes to integrity and honesty.
So, why do I keep breaking promises to myself?
I have recommitted myself to eating better and losing weight at least a hundred times over the last few years. I am really disgusted with my lack of integrity and honesty. I would like to break up with myself. Unfortunately I am stuck with my betrayer.
Lately, I have started to ask some really hard questions:
Do I really want to lose weight?
What is standing in the way?
Can I forgive myself and accept myself as I am?
Why do I insist on continuing this cycle of self-abuse?
How can I maintain my integrity in spite of my weight?
Mostly, I would like to make peace with myself. Maybe that means making peace with being fat.
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