For many years I did not have the tools I need to fully digest my experiences. I was adept at avoiding pain. I employed a variety of strategies to distance myself from my own feelings.
If I was hurt, I would blame others. If I was frustrated, I would stay busy. If I was angry, I would develop a battle plan. These strategies worked but they cut me off from life. They kept me from being fully alive.
Recently I have been writing about past experiences. Remembering the sights and smells and tastes and sounds and conjuring the feelings I tried so hard to avoid. One doesn't have to be gifted to write; the practice of writing is the gift. It allows us to go back and relive the past, feel the feelings and come out whole.
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