Day 298

I made a commitment a couple of years ago to sit for at least 20 minutes a day, at least 5 days a week. I have been amazed at how difficult it has been to maintain that commitment.

Most days as I prepare to sit I find myself distracted. When I go to the computer to set the online meditation timer I use, I sometimes begin to surf the internet instead and read articles on everything from asthma to celebrity couples. I am avoiding. I sometimes wonder: What am I afraid of?

I suppose that I am afraid that I will be visited by demons while I sit (not unlike the Buddha who was visited by Mara, the evil one). I try so hard to avoid my demons during most of my waking hours. When I sit, my defenses are down. Perhaps I will be overtaken.

I suppose that is the point...