Yesterday I had some friends over. In the course of conversation I mentioned that over the last year I have become increasingly aware of just how many truly talented people there are in the world. The internet, in particular, provides a showcase for the myriad of amazing individuals out there. Frankly, I often compare myself to others and am disappointed with the results.
My friend said (half-heartedly mocking the nonviolent communication process): "So, what do you need?" My initial thought was, I need to be a winner in the game of life: better than everybody else, numero uno and all that. I didn't want to say that so I quickly tried to change the subject.
In hindsight it is clear that my need for validation, recognition, attention, accolades is an egoic need. It is hard to accept that I am a person who operates from ego much of the time and that many of my perceived needs are not generated by my true self.
And sometimes I need to be reminded that I am special, just like everybody else.
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